Thursday, December 27, 2018

New Year

I have heard that if you want to have something happen in your New Year, you must start the year doing what ever it is that you desire.

If you wish to have money, start the year with cash in your wallet.
If you wish to have plenty of food, start with a full cupboard and pantry.
If you wish to have love, be with those you love.

I have a plan.

I'm hoping to be able to wear nice clothes on New Year's Eve and Day also have plenty of food on hand and spend the day with the closest people in my life.

May your 2019 be grand.


Monday, December 24, 2018

December 24 greetings

Hello everyone,
If you are celebrating any of the December holidays, I'm late to the game but may they be happy and healthy.
Peace to all.
Love and respect.


Friday, December 21, 2018

Just do it?

I do hope to be able to bring Heather to work daily rather than only on Halloween.  I am not shy about buying my dress at Dress Barn nor am I shy about the fact that I was able to fit into a size 24.  I think coworker Gina was upset because I'm a size smaller than she is.  She even said she has some dresses I'd be able to fit into!  I don't think my secret is safe at work!  The fact that wearing a dress or skirt requires no belt is another winning fact that I tell my female coworkers.
Like Nike's tagline says, I should "just do it"...

Tuesday, December 18, 2018

Busy, busy time of the year.

Good morning friends,

Today has been set up to have us running for the entire day.  My wife has a series of medical appointments scheduled in the city and a person in my life is getting her Doctorate today.  Add all this to with the fact that these events are happening an hour and a half away from ye olde homestead and the day is going to be long.  Two of the medical visits are annual visits and the third is a physical therapy appointment, fortunately nothing bad.  I'd also like to make a couple of stops for myself but I'll have another opportunity this weekend if I cannot do them today. 

The real reason for my writing today is that I would absolutely love to spend the entire day in my amazing Halloween outfit.  It will not happen.  On my friend's big day, I don't want to take away her spotlight or upstage her.  I may just wear a pair of leggings and clingy top for all the medical stuff and switch into boy-ish mode for the graduation.  And Mrs. Heather says I should just do it.  I'd love to but...

Til next time,


ps. I'll keep you posted.

Saturday, December 15, 2018


Hello again,
I've been thinking about society and the way people are.  When you're a person identifying as something outside of the "standard response" as I do, it is hard to become comfortable.
I'm not implying anything in this and it is just my observation, women struggled for acceptance in modern society and in many ways they have succeeded in being accepted as the true equal.  In many cases, a woman can aspire to any job or position in any industry, yes there are jobs women still haven't been invited to hold.  Does a sensible woman really wish to be Pope, RC Priest, leader of the Mormon church, etc?
She can (mostly) wear anything she chooses to most places. 
She can travel independently in the western world; male or female, in 2018 I would never go to Saudi Arabia or places like that.
She has power over her body.  I know that this is contentious in 2018, there are plenty of threats to this from the "religiously infected politicians."

I see articles online about trans-people, begin to feel good when I read them and proceed to the comments.  These are articles telling a survival story or a "how I got here" tale.  Nearly every article has people in reply attacking the trans community for existing.  It is infuriating to see this.  We have a series of laws guaranteeing equal protections under the Constitution but using their "freedom of speech" the commenters attack and insult the trans community. 

Like the debate on abortion:  if you don't like abortion, don't have one.  It is not any person's right to decide for another, equal person. This is a matter that was settled in the 1970's. 

I believe healthcare is also something protected and must be available, affordable (free or reasonably priced) and guaranteed for all.  Yes, if we had better access to mental health services, our society would be much improved.  I feel that I'd benefit from MH counseling, it may help me understand my dysphoria. 

I think to myself often about who and what I am and how I express myself.  How would I benefit if I were to speak candidly with someone about the two personalities inside this single body? 

Monday, November 5, 2018


Hello again.

After the success of my Halloween and the success or our charity group's trunk or treat and fundraiser, our group's president has come up with some plans for winter fundraising events.  One of the things she's proposing is holiday photos of pets with Santa.  She wants me to be Santa.  I am disappointed, I really wanted to be Mrs. Claus!  I will gladly be Santa for our group.  She has some plans for other people to come in and be elves, too.  It will be fun, one way or another.

My experience from the past week has been empowering.  I have never felt this level of confidence in anything in my life.  I'm Heather, first and foremost. There is still another portion of my existence but he's now in the background. 

Thanks for visiting my blog.


Saturday, November 3, 2018

I had a long day.

I volunteer for a local non-profit. We worked all day on a "yard sale" fundraiser. My feet and legs are tired. 
The good thing is that after our day of service, I went to a nearby casino to play off my "free money" that I won on Halloween.  I have not gambled in ages. After about a half hour of playing a nickel video poker machine, I hit a royal flush for $40.  It was a "five play machine and I had some kind of winning hand on every line.  In all my years, it is the first time I've ever done that.  I cashed out my winnings and moved to another machine.  On my first play at the second machine, I hit for $16.  I walked out with more money that I'd entered with.


Friday, November 2, 2018

Long time, no me but I'm back!

Hello readers,
I've not made a blog posting in FOREVER! I'm back and I'll try to update my page more frequently.

Since my last update, I've traveled by plane across country to see family.  During my two and a half weeks of summer spent on vacation, I made a decision to present less male in that other state.  I saw the photos and marveled at my look.  It's clear that I'm more generously endowed up top than I ever was.

If you're ever looking to purchase new clothes, I highly recommend Dress Barn. Three weeks ago I stopped by one of their stores to get an idea for my Halloween outfit.  The salesclerk was wonderful, she offered ideas about the fit of the dresses and colors which may best work with my complexion.  I spent almost $50 for a dress and new earrings.  I bought them for my workday on October 31.  I went to work in my dress and heels, garter belt and seamed stockings and my wig. Before work, I stopped at the grocery store to buy Halloween candy, too.  After work, I went to a Trunk or Treat event and handed out almost $100 in candy with a friend. Our evening was topped off with dinner out at a casino.  The place was holding  a contest for people dressed up, I decided to enter the contest and took second place!

Today was the final day of early voting.  I rushed home after work to change my clothes and put on my lingerie, dress and heels and hastily painted my nails and met my wife at the polling place. I cast my ballot.

I just want to remind every person to be yourself.  My most recent experiences gave me a huge confidence boost.  I feel so good about myself.

Thanks for reading my blog.