Saturday, December 31, 2016

Happy New Year.

I'm writing this while in my favorite skirt, blue lace camisole, black leggings and a flannel shirt.  Pink finger nails, green toe nails (jeez, hope I'm not turning preppy!) and my gold hoop earrings.  I hope we have a fabulous 2017 even with the obvious 1000 pound, orange gorilla in the room and the changing political tide. 

If I have any real goals for the coming year, they are just to be happy and healthy.  I plan spend more time in Heather mode out in the world and hope to spend nearly every day in some form of women's wear.  As it is, almost all of my time spent at home is in a skirt & blouse and I have a nice assortment of nightgowns.  Hopefully, I'll be able to improve my make-up skills.  I'd like to buy a couple pair of slacks and most importantly a natural looking wig. 

I don't know about "coming out" to more friends or family but that is a decision that I've contemplated just to making my life easier.  We must live our lives in a way that is most fulfilling to ourselves.  I can't explain why I feel better when I'm presenting as a woman but I'm so much more comfortable and happy like this.  Why do people like sex, sports, art, music, jogging, cooking or living in a way with which others may not agree?  Damned if I know, I just like what I'm doing.

I plan to travel more (especially in skirts).

Thank you for reading my many stories.  Happy New Year.


Monday, December 26, 2016

Hello friends,

Today is my last weekend day.  What do I have to show for those three days?  Saturday, we went to see my kids.  Sunday, we didn't really do anything.  This morning my wife's phone rang.  Wife's bestie called looking for help building a shelf at the local animal shelter.  I was more than happy to give her a hand.  It was a great feeling to be there, knowing that something I'm doing will improve the experience that all the cats in the building have.  Of course, I'd like to have our friend meet Heather but I'm just not ready.  I just don't want to jeopardize the relationship between my wife and her friend.  Yes, there is always the argument that if Heather isn't accepted then maybe it is better to not be that person's friend.  I don't feel that there would be an issue with acceptance but don't want to mess up their friendship.  Just not worth the risk....

Next thought:  As a person feeling as though they're living with two distinct personalities, I try to keep my life as stable as possible. I don't want to add stress to my existence, before becoming an administrative assistant, I worked at a retail store selling RV parts and scheduling installation of those parts or repairs on privately owned RVs.  I would carry the stress of my day's work home far too often.  I'd love to have the luxury of spending 100% of my time as Heather but reality and life make that an impossibility.  I would like to spend a greater amount of time as Heather in the coming year.  I also have set a goal for myself of taking a full Heather vacation.  I've got a need to go away whether it means taking our little RV to a nearby resort or really going away.   It is that time in my life. 

Shoes:  I've seen people comment about the lack of pretty, colorful or "stylish clothes" available in larger sizes and I agree and feel that this applies to shoes, also.  I'm looking for shoes that are seasonally appropriate but in my size I am only finding athletic shoes or ones that are more dressy than I'm seeking.  The biggest problem is that there are no local stores that carry larger sizes in the styles I want.

Hope your last week of 2016 is nice.


Sunday, December 25, 2016

My visit.

Good morning.  Happy Hanukkah.  Merry Christmas.

My wife and I went to the city yesterday to have dinner with my adult daughters.  Before we left home, I asked if there would be any other people attending.  No, just the four of us.  Ok, engage Heather mode...full speed ahead!  I have a nice green tee/tunic with lace trim at the bottom.  I think the look is complimentary on my figure.  That top with my navy paisley skirt and tights brought out the best of Heather.  On the way out of town, the car needed to be re-fueled.  I took the initiative to pump gas because my wife was too chilly to do it.  We made the seventy mile trip without drama.  This was my first time at their house if full Heather mode.  Youngest daughter opened the door, looked and smiled when she saw me.  Yes, they are very accepting of most things.  That younger generation seems to only have hang-ups about hate, bullying and meanness.  After dinner, I asked what their plan for the evening was.  "Mom is coming over probably around 6:00" was the reply from eldest.  We all get along ok but neither wife nor I really wanted to see Ms. Ex-wife so we knew that we'd be heading out in a short time.  We also needed to meet one of my co-workers so I could sell her a three of the Android tablets we'd bought a few months ago.  It is important to always have an "out" if you don't want to do something!

It was a great visit.  We had lots of fun and silliness.

Happy Holidays


Saturday, December 24, 2016

The question that I was asked.

My spouse often asks me the same questions, over and over again. 

Do you love me?
Are you happy?
Can I stay another day?

The answer is an unconditional yes, every time.

She tossed me a new one on Thursday: "Are you satisfied?"

Heather has been "out" for about a year, now.  I'm very happy with that decision and for the most part, I'm satisfied with my life.  There are things I would love to have and for things I'd like to be different.  Financially, I am nowhere near what I want to have to support us after retirement.  Physically, I enjoy good health with only a couple of joint issues that cause pain. long as I'm working for someone else, it'll always just be a job.  In terms of Heather's existence, I have things that I strongly desire but I know that some are possible/realistic and some are just a pipe dream.  I just need to keep her on a dime-store budget.

We're heading into a new year and I'm looking to spend more time living life my way.  I fully intend to spend more time on the town.

Today is Christmas Eve.  Wife and I will go to the city to spend time with my daughters, who are aware of Heather.  I'll also visit a good friend to deliver some trinkets.  At least part of the trip will occur in a skirt and blouse.  The only issue that I have is a lack of winter footwear.  I will need to find a store that sells something in my size.  Payless lists large sizes on the website but I've not seen any available in my area stores.

Merry Christmas to all!

Sunday, December 18, 2016

I do hate the term bucket list but here is one.

I saw this list on Stana’s Femulate page.  I filled in my personal answers and added a few items of my own.  I created a “key” at the end to explain what the letters mean.   Hope it doesn't get all "jumbled" in the upload. 


Bucket list by Stana:


  • Dance                                                                        I
  • Come out to everyone                                               I
  • Travel by air                                                              P                     
  • Permanent body hair removal                                   I          
  • Go on a date                                                              X            already have a S/O
  • Make-out                                                                   X            see above
  • Compete in a womanless beauty pageant                 M
  • Make love                                                                 M
  • Live full-time 24/7                                                    I
  • Wear a bikini and look good doing it                       N             Not gonna happen!
  • Be a bride                                                                  F
  • Grow my hair long                                                    X
  • Go to a hair salon to get a feminine hairdo               I
  • Pluck my eyebrows                                                   M
  • Go to the mall                                                            P            
  • Attend a cocktail party                                              M            not my scene, maybe?
  • Use the ladies' restroom                                            M
  • Attend a black-tie event                                            X
  • Go out to eat                                                              X
  • Shop for shoes                                                           X
  • Go to a casino                                                            X
  • Go to a movie                                                             I
  • Drive a car                                                                 X
  • Get castrated                                                              N            Unless SRS, unlikely
  • Flirt                                                                            X            see dating
  • Get a makeover                                                          I
  • Dress shopping                                                          P
  • Get a manicure and pedicure                                     I
  • Girls' night out with genetic females                        X
  • Speak with a convincing feminine voice                  F
  • Go to Fantasia Fair                                                    I
  • Go to a concert                                                         X
  • Go to a transgender convention                                I
  • Go to church                                                             M
  • Model in a fashion show                                          F
  • Attend female-only/oriented events                         F
  • Perform on stage                                                      M
  • Go to work                                                               
  • Bra fitting without breast forms                               I
  • Go to a support group meeting                                X
  • Get ears pierced                                                       X
  • Use public transportation (taxi, bus, rail)                P

My additions to the list

  • Other piercings                                                         X
  • Tattoos                                                                      I
  • Go to a public beach                                                 I
  • Wear a swimsuit (one piece) in public                     F
  • Public speaking                                                        M
  • Attend a wedding                                                      F
  • Go to the theatre, symphony or opera                       I
  • Have a custom garment fitted                                   I
  • Breast augmentation                                                 I
  • Hormone therapy                                                     M         Not likely
  • SRS                                                                          M         Not likely
  • Wear toenail polish in public                                   X
  • Wear fingernail polish in public                              X
  • Wear women’s shoes daily                                      X
  • Appear in the media                                                 F
  • Attend Diva Las Vegas                                            I
  • Travel internationally                                               I
  • Waxing/electrology                                                  I
  • Drive cross country                                                 P
  • Wig fitting                                                               I
  • Take a continuing ed class                                      I
  • Take sewing/cooking classes                                  I


F  = Fantasy!  This is a fantasy, strong want!  In a heartbeat, I’d do it!    

I   = Interested.  I would do this.  I am interested in it.  A realistic goal.

M = Maybe… I may consider doing it but it is frightening to me!

N = Not gonna happen!  No way in Hell would I consider this, just no.

P  = Planned already!  I have some kind of plan to do this.

X = X marks the spot.  Been there, done that.
Peace to all.

Saturday, December 17, 2016

Transcontinental trans traveling?

In January, I will be flying to see my parents on the east coast.  I'm seriously contemplating traveling en-femme.  I don't know if I'll do this but it is something I really want to do.  It'll be such a great thing to do.  Mom and Dad live about 40 miles away from the airport and I'm renting a car when I arrive so their son can get to the house rather than the daughter they didn't know they had.  As a side note, I shared my Halloween photo when I was an office girl at work on Facebook.  A family member showed them and they said I looked good (and too much like my older sister). 
Damn, I hope I have the gumption to pull this off!